This is my first post on the new blog. It feels like coming home to something I never actually had — or maybe I did, back when the internet was smaller and weirder and better.

I built this this on my 35th birthday as an escape. an escape from the clutches of a transphobic social media landscape.

I was thinking back to when I had a blog that looked a lot like this. It was my first attempt at this thing called social media. Like everyone using it back then I was trying to ge the attention of some girl.

Who that was isnt important now, there were a few people I pined over on that site, and sites to come.

Blogs like this were the first place i could be open about who I was. I would post vague and emo scribes, hoping someone might guess. Might be so interested in my darkest secrets they would ask me out right. I remember being totally open on annonymous sites like my dear diary dot com. The first exposure to mean girls and meaner attitudes.

And through the years, the my dear diaries, the xangas, the myspaces, lost to time. Not just the blogs themselves (all for the better im sure) but the format. The long form and unique replaced by the short and ad riddled. Facebook was a mistake. Twitter is dead. Tik tok a Zombie.

So whats left.

Nothing really, and everything. Life is whats left for me.

I need a place to put my thoughts. A place to talk into the void and occasionally have it talk back.

i think I’ll try and dedicate an hour to freeform thought a week. Maybe even the occasional think piece.

I’ll try and keep the AI slop to a minimum here while i refind my voice.

Why Now?

Because sometimes you want to build something that sparks joy.

You want to build something ephemeral and lasting at the same time.

Something Mark Zuckerburg doesnt control.

Like all my other projects, this may start with a bang and end with a fizzle.

But if I set my mind to something I usually do it. and if you stick to something long enough it becomes a habit.

So Whats next

I’m not so sure.

I’ve got some vague plans

Ive got a ton of “finished” art I need to share

Ive got even more unfinished i need to complete

Ive been vibe coding and traveling and I have a house I bought and want to renovate.

I have a Dog and Cat and a Husband

And we want to have a baby

Thats the real underlying goal of this place.

To put pen to paper and do the thing I’ve been preparing for the last 15 years.

Having a kid isn’t ever what anyone would call easy. For us I think it goes without saying that it will be harder than most.

I’m gonna talk about that here because I don’t know where else to put it.

It feels very self serving. Its a thing I want. I know I want it. And I cant talk about it on Zucks internet.

I’ll have more to say on that in the future. Soon even. But for now its enough to say it out loud.

We are going to have a baby.

Enough about that for now

Enjoy that site and the open comments for now.

Im sure the bots will find this place and ill have to lock it down. And If you are reading this in a far flung future and Ive kept my work and it doesnt actually look like a Xanga page anymore just know, nothing ever stays the same

unless it does

Here’s some code, because I can:

print("hello from 2006")

If you’re reading this far, thanks for stopping by. Give me some props.